stands to take me far away.
Stuck in the same place,
realizing I'm far away.
STUPID STUPID STUPID -
How could you take another's pain
onto the spinning dice
that is already your heart?
Broken and grating pleasure,
don't ever return.
I shudder at your very presence,
stumbling is all that can come from you.
Understanding laughter in my heart,
I struggle -
failing to see the purpose,
going off the handle.
Purpose firm purpose true,
how did I find you?
How, reaching?
Try.
Growing broken hands
golden from overuse
a protected heart;
wilderness seeking.
crunch, there goes the glue -
pulling me in,
its savage noise -
chewing gum.
A strange feeling as my vocabulary
flies from my throat,
driving home my greatness:
a fake truth spout.
quick happiness unfold,
like a bitter tent
dropping onto the sand.
I must give my iron hands away.
Into the arms of someone new
stumbling for days, months, years.
Peppermint breath
fuels my tears
Filling my ears with disjointed noise
1 4 19 18 5 1 13?
pull up
outside of this forsaken place
However do I greet him?
Say my name?
Create something new.
a sculpture for a king.
I wanted it to be the greatest,
it ended up true:
with infused terror -
Why can't I be like you?
This scares me.
I speak too much,
care too little,
and it shows.
